I was looking up the four types of M.S. for a research paper that I was working on. I knew that there were four from looking at this subject in the past, for obvious reasons. I don’t think I ever came across this diagram before or maybe I just didn’t give it much notice but looking at it this time touched me kind of differently. I guess I’m lucky to have RRMS.   I don’t know how I’m supposed to feel about the fact that the longer I live, the more disabled I’m going to become.

I feel like Sisyphus pushing the boulder for all eternity.

Or I’m still the hiker on that Price Is Right game, Cliff Hanger. If I overbid, then I’ll go over the edge.

This is what I think of as I see the incline for disability as I grow older. Nothing is going to end well. How do I register this?